31/12/2009
Today is last day of 2009,all the thing was happened in this year we should put it down and have a new begining...this year have to face SPM final exam!!!i have to concentrate on my academic n study hard to get a good result...Yesterday key men asked me dont go to skul n married wth him... he will take care me...he said no need have a good result because no need work he will give me money n stay at home juz for take care his life....i will not give up my academic n i wish my life wont be ordinary!!!My dream life is i have a lot of money,a company a beautiful car n a big house...all of this is the direction for me...this direction will push me to study n working...

So that,i had make a decision...maybe i'm wrong but i cant be selfish...although i was hurt damnly when key men was choose her, i also cant revenge on her...both of us r women so i cant treat her like this... i cant stolen her bf because key men told me if he leaved her, she will suicide....i cant be selfish!!!i cant be a murderous...so last night i ask key men don think too much(between he and i)!!!have to treat nicely wth his gf!!!i think some ppl will agree my decision,some ppl will call me foolish...i hope will not regret in future...

long time din write on blog le...today i was discover something tat is key men had noe about i had started wth a kim long time le... but he din said anything...now he told me he still love me n wan to break up wth his gf n come back to my side...now i so confuse wat should i do!!!i love key men but i cant brake up wth a kim like this!!!kim had sacrifice many things for me... he leave his work because his boss ask him don be wth me!!!he spend many money on me n buy all the things i like..i very scare key men will abandon me a again!!!kim or key men???this two men i also dunwan to lose both of them...but all the guys was ask me choose kim because he is truly love me....

14/11/09
taday i say i wan break up v him leh...this time is not the first i say like this...very time agrue i feel tired liao...sometime i cant tahan leh...just wan to freedom...we argue the samething like i din accompany him dinlove him n din respect him...haiz i had explain many times but he still cant understand...wat can i do???

13/11/09
haiz,morning just argue wth ah kim...just ask him drive more careful but he sat he always drive like tat...this is his drive style....donnoe y...i feel very tired le...wan to break up but not bear....haiz...i make myself in suffer..i just wan my bf do wat i wan... mayb this attitude very selfish but this is my attitude la....so tired...y he cant do wat i wan??

12/11/09
today is my boyfrendz ah kim birthday but i din accompany him n go to sing v my frendz....so sorry about him...
today.keyman say he was sick suddendly i feel my heart pain n really wan to take care of him but is not my job longer...
he got new girl frendz liao... no need me le...don noe y until now i'm still cant forget him...although ah kim treat me very nice...